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Argh!!!! Y does this always hv to happen?!!! Y does everytime i start trusting him, n there he goes lying to me again!!!!! Argh!!!! Fark fark fark!!!!! Im soooooo farking pissed off now!!! Dun u noe hw hard it is to get back that trust?!!! N there u go, always n always n always breaking n breaking n breaking my heart again!!! U always play with my feelings!!! Wat do u really tink am i?!!! A doll to u?!!!! Ha!!!! Just someone or something that is without a feeling?!!!! Fark!!!! N then there's the part that u will tell yr mum wen we quarrell!!! Argh!!! Wat r u?! a 5 yr old kindegarten boy?!!! Who doesnt even noe how to stand up for yrself but go running to yr mum for every tyme that we quarrell?!!! N there u go babbling to here all of MY mistakes!!! Wen your mistakes is laid out rite in front of yr farking eyes!!! Argh!!!!!!!!Fark!!!!! Ya!! everything is MY fault!!! All is coz of ME!! Me Me Me Me Me!!!!!At least i face up to reality n settle my own probs by myself!!!Fark!!! Fark!!! Fark!!!!

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Ok so at last he came to my house by himself. Im sooo proud of him to hv overcomed his fears. Hehe.. Yeah, n so i was getting ready for him to pick me up to go to his socca game, he came straight up to my house. Hehe n i was shocked to find him in my house. Anyways, he was there for a minute or two, n den we had to go off coz he's late for his socca game. Semi-Finals hey..

Ya, n guess wat?! Their team won!! 7-0. Hahahahahahha...... It was a very exciting match. N the team really did their best n outbid the opponents. Yeay!! So next week is their finals.I sooo cant wait. Wish u guyz all the best ya!!

Anyways, i will b startin work the next Monday. Which is 11 Jan. Hmmm.. Hubby said dat he cant wait for me to start work. N he said that he knows that i cant wait to start work either. But i dun feel that way. I juz dunno y. Its kinda mixed feeling. haiz...

Oh ya! Abt goin to the socca just now, it was rainnin super heavily. We were soaking wet n we were lost! Hergh!! Stweepeed Yishun! One thing is they dun put sign boards on where is that stweepeed skul, n then they didnt even indicate that their field is not within the skul premises. N that to go there, u will hv to make another big turn out to the back of the skul. Walaowei!!!! Sooo damned makin ppl live difficult sia!!!

Hubby is really gonna get a car soonz. Hmph! No more drenched in the rain. Or having to spend our wasting time at dunno wherever places to wait for the rain to stop. N no more sweating like as if we r bathing, under the hot sun. Pffft!!

Ok ok, so guess wat?! Hubby has already registered our kursus rumah tangga ok. Its in March n n n, but we still havent decide on which is the best date to settle down.

Hmmmm...

Ok, im sooo tired now. N i wanna sleep. Gdnyte everybody! Luv ya! Muuuackz!!!

Sunday, January 3, 2010

No worries, we r still on. Hmm.. No matter how much we quarrell, we will still b back.I juz dun understand.

Anyways, yah we celebrated our 20anniMonthversary with Apen n Mei Yee by watching Alvin n the Chipmunks 2. Wanted to watch at Vivo but was fully booked.So after checkin almost all the cinemas on the net on my iphone, we decided that we shud go to Plaza Sing's GV. Even that, the seats left are only the first 5 rows. Haiz..Then while otw there, we saw Suntec. N i was like "Y not we juz go to Suntec? Coz suntec usually not much ppl watching." So we side tracked to Suntec. N guess wat?! Its empty!! Hehehe... I mean not really fully empty. There were a few ppl here n there. Hehx!

Bt while waitin for Apen n Mei Yee to arrive, we went shoppin for their late Christmas prezzie. I mean, its not nice that they had given us prezzie n we didnt give in return rite? Bought Apen Ferrero Rochers (his favourites!!), N dark chocs for Mei Yee.

Ok so movie was at 9.40. The movie was very nice!! The chippettes sooooo cute!!! Hahx!

After the movie, home.

Anyways, yah i didnt accept Apen's job offer. Coz i gt a better one. At last HDB called. N last Tuesday i signed the Letter Of Appointment. Bt i dun feel gd rejecting Apen's offer. he was soo, how do i put it? unhappy? or was it regret? He was sooo happy wen i gt a job in the same company as him. N he kept on repeating klau Fad amek keje Apen, 4th Jan da start keje. N apen leh ajar Fad sumer pasal keje tu. Haiz..Where else the HDB job startin on 11 Jan. I chose HDB coz itz a govt job n has alot of benefits.

Ok so abt countdown. It was kinda boring. Coz didnt get to partay. Mei yee initially got 4 tics to the Siloso beach party. But Hazizi brought his kids along. So in the end we only went to Marina Bay. After seeing the place is super packed,w e decided to go to Esplanade to get a betta view. The walking part was super exhausting. Bt it was all paid off with beautiful n satisfying fireworks! So after the fireworks, we juz walked ard, bought cotton candies, n sweet corn n ate n drank. No alcohol ok. Pity the two kids. Hehe.. Bt a gd thing they actually lasted till that timing. Very good huh?! Oh ya! Abt the tics to Siloso, Mei Yee gave it away. Haiz.. No party.

So, any New Year Resolutions? Well, i dun believe in that. Coz nvr once i had stick to it. Hahx! Bt i guess i wanna do it for this year 2010. For real! That is, to stop quarrelling with this dear hubby of mine n to trust him. Even tho how much he lies to me. I juz have to face it. Till one day he realise the guilt of lying. I also wanna control my anger n juz be happy owayz. No matter wat happens. So, wish me luck ya! Coz i am in nature an anger-prone person. Followin in my father's footsteps of coz. Hehx! Not that i hv a choice.

Ok ok so i guess i will hv to end here. Coz i need to go n bath n get ready to go out. Yeah! Its mama's birthday today. Hehe.. 1st Jan! Nice.. N this is the reason y we didnt wanna go KL for the countdown which the others had planned. N so yah, we wanna bring her out for a treat.

So i will end here. ~Bubye~ Muuuuackz!!

Friday, January 1, 2010